It Was The Night Before Preschool!

EDUCATION | | September 7, 2008 at 7:47 pm


I may have touched on the topic of the impending preschool event in my post on Preschool Preparation Panic, but I had just skimmed the surface of this deep pool of emotions. I tried diverting attention to a last minute shopping attempt to get some clothing (so weird to shop for regular clothing when back home we are used to wearing uniforms, but a whole other post on that someday) and even had fun at a birthday party the afternoon before. But my heart still sank whenever I thought of it. I know many cry over this event as it is a sign of how much our kids have grown, but not me. I weep about how I am not ready to grow apart from my baby. I gave up my career as I could not bear being apart from my baby, and now I am about to entrust her to the care of strangers (well I met the teachers, but you know what I mean).

I do not worry about whether she will gain anything academically, not because she is pretty smart (she is, being able to read fluently already), but mainly because I really want her to have a wonderful time exploring. Had I had several member of my family living around me, and we had no exposure of the harsh Boston winter (where we all barely see our wonderful neighbors), I might have thought twice to send her to school. Education she may need but the social aspect is something she craves, especially being the social darling she is. Yes, sharing and listening skills all need to be honed in, but I figure practicing these each day at school will certainly help (though sister Miss B has surely given her a lesson or two in the sharing department).

I worry endlessly about all the scenarios: What if she has a potty accident? What if she is scolded.. and cries? What if she becomes rowdy and is disliked? What if she does not make friends? What if she does not listen? What if she is laughed at? What if she is hit by another student? What if she hits another student? What if she cries for me? What if? …

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